Oh, man, we are in FULL swing now. Whew! This week I’ve got 2 presentations, a quiz, 2 cases, group meetings, tons of reading, and then Pat gets here Friday, so there will be very little time for homework over the weekend, so I *should* technically, be reading for next week as well. The thing is, my list of “shoulds” gets longer every day, because I should also be revising my resume to apply for summer internships, I should be practicing case interviews regularly, I should be getting ahead on my economics project (30 page group paper, due in December, first presentation on it in 2 weeks), I should be studying for my finance, quantitative models, and accounting classes, because they’re freaking hard, I should be making a better effort to get to the gym and cook a real meal once in a while, I should clean my room before Pat gets here because, let’s be honest, it’s a freaking embarrassment right now… See? Lots going on.
Anyway, today I had my review session for Business Law (did I mention that I failed that class in pre-term?–yep, failed it, spectacularly, by bombing the final exam–which, to be fair, was almost more of an accounting exam than a law exam, and we already know how I feel about accounting!). I’ve been mostly pretty relaxed about Law, because, to be honest, I knew that the test had gone badly when I took it, so I’ve just been waiting to hear what I need to do next. The reason I hadn’t been worried was that I figured that the make-up test would be different (given that 20/55 people in the Spanish section failed the exam, I thought maybe, just maybe, it might be the exam that screwed us, and not the other way around, eh?). Not so! The make up exam will likely be pretty similar. Great. So now my list of “shoulds” gets even longer, as in, “I should be studying for my effing derecho make-up.” Ugh. (Alex M, wish you were here to help me!) And man, I’ve never failed a class in my life. Don’t get me wrong–I was no straight A student either, and of course, we already know that I didn’t have grades at UCSC (and I did, admittedly, “no record” a couple of classes there, if you know that I mean, heh–but that was deliberate!) but I’ve never outright failed a class. So, yeah, I failed it. And I even liked that class, a LOT, but the final was super super super hard for me (language definitely played a part). The crazy thing is, I ended up doing extremely well in my other classes (including a 9.0 in statistics!). And my classes this semester are hard (freaking hard, in fact), but I’ve gotta say: I had better not fail anything this semester.
Interestingly, I made the (recently life-changing!) decision, after the stress of pre-term, to adjust my attitude–taking a SCORE!-esque approach, I’ve decided to be Relentlessly Positive (with caps, because it was actually part of my job description there, and I wanted to be sure to give the right emphasis, you know). Or maybe it’s more like a Mary-esque approach, and I’m just swatting away my stress. In any case, I’ve also decided to take a step back, and not own other people’s stress, and not give them mine. All I have to do is pay attention to my to-do (or my should) list, try to stay one day ahead, minimum, all the time, and focus on making it to December 20th (which is to say, my last day of class) as well as passing my law exam (part deux) as positively and stress-free as possible. How do you like my chances?
