Oooookay…. Whew! After last week’s freakout, I am feeling (somewhat) better. Man, failing another class has been yet another hit to my already extremely bruised ego. (Yes, folks, I know what you’re thinking, but I pretty much put together that I can’t “skate by” as usual when I failed the first AND second classes… At this point, it’s just demoralizing.) Luckily, I have excellent friends here, and they’ve done a good job of reminding me that I’m not nearly as dumb as I feel. Also, as Laura shrewdly reminded me, I didn’t WANT to be a teacher, and that’s why I didn’t study education. Right. I guess I just want to feel good at something again, and if there’s one thing I know, it’s that I rock with kids, but I do NOT rock at business school. No kids in sight, and I’m not feeling terribly good at anything.
BUT, I did say I’m feeling better, and so, you know, mostly I am. At least my city provides me with plenty of distractions (ugh, not always good ones — football fans en masse on vacation are one of my LEAST favorite things about local tourism, especially when their chanting and shouting wakes me up at 4:30am on a school night…) so at least I can’t always dwell on my perceived idiocy.
Two big highlights from last week: last Thursday the sun came out, it was a beautiful day, so my group and I headed down to a chiriguito en la PLAYA to drink beers, play frisbee (well, they played — I watched and took pictures with Christian’s camera), and enjoy the fact that we live on the freaking Mediterranean; second highlight, though way less sexy: my interview was postponed to tomorrow, so I didn’t have to fake my way through it. (Oh man, I was having some dark visions of how it would go: “So, tell me about your strengths and weaknesses.” “I don’t HAVE any strengths, but I can tell you ALL about my weaknesses…” or “So, why an MBA?” “I don’t KNOOOOOOOW! Booohoooo!!!” Yeah, it could have gone badly…) Luckily, I’m in a bit of a better mood today (not a LOT better, given that I have yet to understand ANYTHING in Finance or Law, and we’re already 2 weeks in…) and assume that I’ll feel better going into my interview tomorrow than I would have last week… And the work load isn’t too intense tonight, so I’ll get a good night sleep before my interview. Fingers crossed it goes well, and I’ll have a solid plan for the summer, and can stop having buyer’s remorse for not going to Cape Town… I promise, I’m feeling better, though.
Hey, funny thing: I didn’t realize until just now that your super nice weather day and my super nice weather day were both Thursday. Ahh, I like it when things align like that and I can pretend we’re not so far away from each other.
I’m glad you’re feeling a little better. I am giving you big virtual hugs. They’re not as good as the real ones, but the real ones are only a month and a half away!